It's getting quite clear now for me that Pavarotti's pancreatic cancer news is helping me to cope with father's loss and getting father's picture back to the foreground of my daily actions. Why Pavarotti?Because Pavarotti had a powerful voice and that's what this blog is all about: being a powerful voice of cancer patients who don't have any strength anymore to power their voice!
Father was no opera singer, but he and his grandfather (who died having jaundice, so we can only speculate that probably he also had liver cancer and on top of that he died at exactly the same age like father)... Anyway, father and grandfather were very active singers in the local church community.
So it comes with a big detour but father is back to tell me I need to continue to raise awareness that cancer is amongst us and answer as much questions as possible. Because believe me: you can live all your live without much wondering until suddenly you are your loved one gets hit with cancer, and suddenly the questions come poring in.
Why so many questions? Because you can answer a lot but you cannot answer:
- why a nice person gets picked to die an ugly cancer death
- why anybody of us these days can get cancer so quickly
- why human kind is supposedly so advanced, but has no clue why cells become tumors and cancer. After all, we are just a very organized bunch of cell, so what is so difficult that we can't even understand ourselves?
I saw the funeral of Pavarotti the day before yesterday. Pavarotti whose voice was silenced by a pancreatic cancer. I was especially moved when Italian fighter jets flew over Pavarotti's hometown, leaving in their trail the colors of the Italian flag. Moved, because father was also in love with airplanes...